Our Direction of Steps....

A step in the direction of where I am heading is a good place to go.  Now, to most of you reading this, that was a very confusing statement.  I know, I know.  Let me finish.  This, being the first of the year with a fresh start of things, I went to church.  I had not been there in a coon's age.  Well, not since Christmas anyway.  For a very long, long time I have needed to find a new place to be with God.  I have tried to do this in many ways.  On the parkway, in my home, in my journal, walking, and planting flowers while digging in the dirt.  It just hasn't filled the empty space that was there from having a church home.  I'm not saying all these things that I have been doing haven't helped. Indeed they have kept me sane.  But there is just something about singing the Doxology in unison with a congregation that just rocks my socks off. I have been hiding in the solitude of my address and behind my red door. Their are so many things that have been left unturned by my own hand it's not funny.  It's time to turn more than a little dirt.
They say to admit to your own problems you aren't too far gone. Well, this is a good thing!  I believe in Christ and have all of my life. It's my faith that has been shaken from time to time.  The good pastor said in today's sermon that forgiveness is the way to a new day. A new way.  To shed your hatred of others and things of your past or else it will devour you up like an acid.  Now, I was just sitting there, then that statement got my attention. Has the lack of faith in others or my not forgiven those in my past kept me at arms distance from God's love and His grace?  Makes you want to say, hmmm.  Hate is such a strong word, however, whenever we carry something inside of us for to many years and dislike turns into dysfunction and so on and so forth.  You get the idea.  When things get scary, I admit, I run.  I run away.  I am or have a tendency to be like an ostridge. The pastor also said something that has caused to me to wonder about.   I don't know if I have it exactly like he put it but it was something like this.  We are vessels, and if we carry hate within us then we are spoiled. So it is better to pour out forgiveness and cleanse out and heal so that we can be properly fit for what God wants to bestow upon us.  It made sense when he said it.  To forgive, divine.  
So, as we begin this new year with new resolutions and bright ideas for getting into shape, let us not forget our insides, which is the very light of our soul which reflects our being and catapults us into each and everyday. Only one day at a time.